Confession #1

情侣之间, 多多少少难免会有一点摩擦. 每当我遇到的时候, 最不能冷静的是我自. 还好, 还有一个很体谅我的他! :D 但我知道, 总有一天对方也会觉得很累.. 唯一的解决方法就是改变自己!

我不会再轻易放弃你.. 我会捉紧你 - 就算掉到万丈深渊, 我也会陪你一起掉 :)

You promised me that you won't ever leave me and take care of me forever. I believe in you. I won't make you breaking those promises, I swear. 

I love you kiss on my forehead; I love to kiss on your forehead too. It makes me to be calm :)

million I LOVE YOU to you Jeremy Teh Jee Han ♥

stay sweet :)

Question Mark?

I had a very wonderful night seriously, well, I'll blog about it next time, or maybe on the next post? :D

I just got a msg from one of my best girlfriends. She was facing some problem recently and I was quite worry about her :(

I know her since Form 1 until now, almost 6 years. Even though we didn't share many secrets to each other, but we still have other topics to chat about like fashion, photography, make up and etc.

She is not a girl that very good in study, but she is really good in performing! :D

She met a boy and very unexpected, they both got into a relationship. The outsiders like us thought they were a pair of super-sweet-couple!

But very unexpected too, they both broke up and I didn't know when it was. When I knew about it, it was too late and the girl was already crying in front of me.

Babeh, I'm so sorry to make you cry and I don't like to see your crying face too. I didn't mean to let you think about those sad memories.

Tonight, she sms-ed me and told me that she really miss him so damn much. She wanted to tell him her feelings; she was wondering that everything would back to normal. My mood was ruined off and I didn't know how to comfort her. I was so afraid that she would do something stupid or maybe hurt herself.

Babeh, I know it is hard for you to forget about him or don't even think of him; I know you still miss him so much and still love him. But, if something that really belongs to you, it will go for you; if something that really not belongs, then don't force it to be yours :)

All you can do now are let yourself be busy, so that you will not think of him. When you are really out of control, just release your feelings and sadness. Don't let you stand for it all alone, share it with your friends and families! :D

The most important, don't ever hurt yourself. Must eat well, sleep well and take care of yourself well. Don't forget that you still have us and your families too, don't let us worry about you :)

You are little-good-good-pretty girl, sure you can meet someone that really love you and sayang you! :D

Don't give up and the better one is waiting at the corner of the other street :)

Be tough girl! <3






Some might say that, it sounds easy but it is hard actually.

Yesh, you're right :(

I can't imagine that if someday Baby left me ..OMGGGGGG! D:

I really dare not to imagine! *slap myself*

But I believe that he won't leave me and I won't too :)

All About Him :)

野猫

其实早在一个小时之前我就已经把电脑关上，可是不懂为什么就是睡不着。


脑海里出现的都是你， 反反复复地，一遍又一遍。

我们的马六甲计划泡汤了。我真的可以想象你那失望的脸孔，还有那勉强挤出来的笑容。我真的很心疼 :(

我知道你一定会非常的失望，可能对我也再没有什么期望。除了道歉，我真的不知道我该怎么办。



宝贝，我一定会补偿你的。虽然我知道怎么做都补偿不了，但是我真的真的很愧疚，我真的很想补偿你。



我什么都不懂得，最厉害的就是哭哭啼啼。

你哭屁啊？！

我，失眠了

Last Order

12 hours more, I'll be on the plane.

20 hours more, I 'll be on the street of Japan.

Going there supposed to be very happy and excited, but I don't know why, I lost the excitment

Somehow I wish I can stay here :(

The most suffering is I can't contact with him for one week; I didn't chat with him for one day is enough to kill me.

• Dear, must eat your meal on time and DON'T SKIP MEAL! Be careful of those tiny pieces of meat too ah, last time you told me that you stomachache after ate it. So, check properly before eat okay? I know you won't skip your meal, but must eat whenever you feel hungry okay?

 

• Dear, don't eat so many junk food and instant noodle too ah, unhealthy also. Don't always eat milo powder like eating sweet okay? The most important, don't always drink water with many many many ice. Eat more healthy food okay? If can buy some fruits also, or juice also can. Drink more water is a must!

• The weather there is getting colder and colder adi. So wear thicker okay? I don't want you to get sick someday, if not nobody can take care of you. I know you want to say you're kuat, but no matter how kuat are you, you still will fall sick larh silly.

 

• I guess dear will be kinda busy this few days because of Christmas party celebration, football or others etc. So no matter how, must take a good rest okay? Sleep earlier if can, for your own health. Before sleep, must take a shower if sweating and drink a cup of water, cover up blanket nicely so that won't get cold. 

 

• Must wash ur hand and cut your fingernails on time, since dear used to bite it when doing nothing or being too concentrate. Dirty cat! :@ Next time let you bite mine, mine is clean :p

• When facing problem, dear must be calm all the time. Always think positively and take it easy. Everything can be solved, just take it easy okay? Don't worry, no matter how, I'm always be with you and support you all the time *hug* :D

• Must miss me all the time ya! When you miss me, look into my pics, listen to Need You Now and hug your pillow like hugging me :p Don't miss other girls aa, I want to full-filled your mind and heart :)

Promise me that you will take good care of yourself, but I know I can't stop worrying about you.

MUST A! If not I don't want to be friend with you adi :(

Don't worry about me, I will be careful all the time and I will be safe too. Miss you 99 all the night just like you said, cause I won't stop missing you. I will pray hard for you so that this few days anything happen to you will be solved easily.

Just promise me okay? Darlinnn <3

say yes

Coming Soon!

7 is down, 3 more to go! :)

Anyway, I hope there's somewhere selling this kind of boot

They are so goddamn cute! :D

Oh yea, baby is facing some problem over there

I'm really worrying about him, even we are in the thousands miles of distance :(

I really hope that everything will be solved faster so that he won't be such moody

Hey mr.problem, you found the wrong place larh!

xiu xiu xiu!

GO AWAY AND STAY FAR FAR AWAY FROM MY BOY!

I beg you God :(

Pray To God

当你无助的时候

我却不能在你身边保护你, 帮助你, 支持你, 安慰你

原谅我 :(

我会真心为你祷告 :)

everything will be okay my love

Never

哭到眼黑眼圈都跑出来眼睛肿到要死还再哭.

 我真的很恨我自己

矛盾得来又口是心非

明明就很想你留下

却硬撑说 :"没关系, 你去吧!"

我也知道你很为难

我不应该那么自私

我不应该那么小气

我不应该那么贪心

我不应该那么霸道

我不应该那么争风吃醋

我有种种的不应该

我想有问题的是我，错的也只是我

我要坚强

我要宽恕

我要大方

我要忍耐

我要知足

我有太多需要改变的地方

我会努力，无论有多难，我都会去做

我有一个小小的愿望

 我希望你开心，发自内心的开心 :) 

我是行的, 加油!

:D

Don't ever bring me down

Memorable

It is 3.45 in the morning now, hell yea, insomnia again D:

I guess baby is sleeping like a pig now, due to he couldn't sleep well yesterday night

Went to OneU with my aunt's family, memory popped out of my mind again.

That's out first dating place; I passed by our first restaurant :)

I didn't mean to be emo tonight; I'm not being emo too now.

I'm just missing you too much.

Even though we still can chatting through Facebook during weekdays and webcam during weekends, but for me, all these can't cure me :(

I know baby sure will say I'm greedy, but I'm not; I just wanna be with you all the time

Listen carefully, it is ALL THE TIME

That's your hand.

Catch me whenever I'm falling down :)

Well let's think the other way round, I should be more appreciate all the things we're having right now

I don't want to be regret someday if I lost it 

I will change my silly thought :)

96 DAYS TO GO!

Be patient girl

Romance :)

This post is totally just for you larh boy.

Some memories may be flashed back in your mind, but I bet you miss those time too :)

Do you still remember the first big surprise that you gave me ?

I will not forget about it man. You told me that you won't on9 for 2 days due to the connection, and you would be back to Malaysia on Saturday night.

But god knew that you reached Malaysia on Wednesday night and asked me out on the next day.

You know how I felt that time? I really felt like crying, and was like scolding you, " Bad thing, cheated on me.. ?" But still, I was very very very surprised and happy too.

Do you still remember our first date ?

Yerp, OneUtama! When you hadn't meet me yet, you thought I was just an ordinary girl, but after you met me, you just realized that I wasn't such SIMPLE as you thought. Our first movie was Twilight Saga - the movie quite suck for us.

We held hand on our first, and thanks for you sweet kisses too.

AND I won't ever forget those words that you told me in the car. Well, they were something related to TEETH. lmao!

Do you still remember our first outdoor activity ?

Yeaaaa. swim. We went for swim, almost every week once, unless I was having PMS.

When we both got into the water, we both would shaking and shaking and shaking, just because we felt cold. Then, we would just hugged inside the pool and shaked together. You also asked for competition, see who was the fastest. For sure, I was the one who always lose. You would laughed at me, after that, you hugged me.

Silly baby :)

Do you still remember what you did when you saw some pretty girls passed by ?

HAHA! I felt so speechless every time you did that.

When we hanging out, whenever you saw some pretty girls passed by, you would say, " Oh, leng lui lerh! "
Then I might ask, "Where?! "
By that time, you would cover up my eyes with your hand and asked me not to see.
I asked you, "Why don't you cover up your eyes, but mine?"
You said, "I cover your eyes, so that you will be sad when you look at them."

Okay, well, fine. Hmphh! How bad are you. * pinchhhhh *

Well, that's all. I know it's quite less, but I have to leave some for other days what. Maybe our 4th Month Anniversary? HAHA!

**********

My boy is at Shang Hai, China currently now. I chatted with him through webcam, he looked quite tired.

I hope he will really take care of himself well.

Wear more, since the weather is cold now; Eat on time, gained weight and don't ever empty your stomach; Drink more water, skin very dry!

Boy, don't ever get sick there okay? I can't take care of you if you sick since I'm not beside you now.

I miss him so badly now, that's why I wrote this post :(

I'm still not over it.

I don't know why ? :(

You're The Heart Breaker

Oh yea, I had been dumped by my Boyfriend on Saturday night
Hell, that was really sad
THAT'S REALLY SAD OKAY ?!


The reason that we broke up is he thinks that he needs a partner that really understand him and know what he is thinking
Did I fail to understand him ?
Maybe I was, but I think that everyone needs some time to understanding each others
If I could, I would like to use my whole life to know about and understand you


Hey boy, I do really appreciate you
Hey boy, I do really think that you're the right guy
But see what you had done to me ?
Hell yea, you broke my heart.


I was very insist of our relationship and trying to beg you to stay
But you were just so cruel and turned off your head and said " NO, SORRY "
Nothing can change the fact, and the fact still the fact.


I wish you can find a girl that really truely understand you, has a pretty face, has a high IQ, knows how to cook, has a common interested with you, can communicate with you, and etc
I wish you joy and happiness and above all of these, I wish you love.


I'm gonna be okay and be alright
I just need some time to get over you
Don't need to worry about me and I'll take good care of myself


I still need your love and caring however
You would never know that I'm crying whole night for you
And you are going to pay this because my eye bags become bigger and bigger !


Last word for you
I LOVE YOU BABY :(









Pasting my heart back pieces by pieces

I miss you

Gotcha !

This is the second week of school
Well, I didn't enter the class for almost 2 weeks because of SQM duty
Actually the main reason was to skip classes . HA ! xD


Almost done the notice board, just left the AJK list, but there is another notice board which inside the SQM room waiting for me
Ala ! I will ask the juniors to do that. Heh heh heh !
This is not what we called as BULLY .

Our SQM slogan

" 什么pattern都有呃 ! "
" Apa-apa pattern pun ada "

When i was chatting with him.
I think i need to buy a better webcam. :S


I fell in love with someone that wouldn't never fall for me.

我犯贱 !

No more days and night for him .

Is it a must ?

Is it a must to have a relationship now ?
本小姐连发梦都会梦到被鬼佬偷亲
不过自认爱情路坎坷到不行
也开始有点自暴自弃

第一次pak tor, 他因车祸而死
哭了N天

第二次呢，那个死粉肠欺骗了我 !
竟然一脚踏两船, 被我拆穿还不认
分手后第三天竟要求复合 ?
你去死啦 !

第二次过后, 再也没有第三次了

不喜欢的就偏偏来
喜欢的就偏偏不来
尝试 ?
我害怕, paiseh !


我根本就没有一场轰轰烈烈的爱情
什么为我挡死之类的


是我本身条件不好吗 ?
还是我和他们太brother叻 ?
还是我要求太高 ?
还是什么 ?


唯一能说来安慰自己的事
我不是他们菜
我很丑, 我很肥, 我无聊
她们好像比我美耶 ~
认命吧小姐 !


别以为我很有自信
其实我超没自信的好不好 !
请盖我一巴, terima kasih .


我很无奈
我不知所措
哭笑不得


就由得我去死吧 !
轰轰烈烈地死吧 !
我真的很无聊吧 ?!

谁可以来爱我 ?

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you


I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

Come back to me

Insomnia

It's around 2am midnight now, i still haven't sleep yet !
Insomnia, because i slept for whole day after schooling
Not in the study mood, so just on9 since didn't touch my lappie for 2 days


Well, exam is getting nearer and nearer
But feel like still got a lot of things i haven't study yet
Although i put a lot of efforts on it, but i think i won't get good result for this exam
I just want some improvement
=S


And HE !
I have no idea what to do now
Confess ? No way !
Think giving up is the best way, solve everything !


Hey, don't always Haiz Haiz Haiz when chatting with me please
If i said No, mean No, why keep asking me why ?!
=X


I am damn cool in school nowadays
Teach me how to smile
Woohoooo !


It's 2.30am right now, not in the good mood right now
Why are you so serious ?!
Why do you like to argue with me ?!
I am showing my bad attitudes, so what ?!
Kill me if you could .


My Kun Kit not going to school tmr !
Ish !

I am a stranger

Time

Holidays was ended, and school is reopened.
Today we were going to back school
Expected, i couldn't wake in the morning and late to school today
=X


During this holidays, i didn't touch my homework, books blah !
I touched food the most, that's why my weight increases like hell
Chatting with Babi Xon and Amer the most during this holidays


Babi Xon, thanks for telling me what kind of girl he likes
I think i won't be the that kind of girl
I am not Banana !


Amer, thanks for cheering me up and kept on asking me talk with him
But honestly, i really not brave enough to do so
And thanks cause willing to teach me how to talk to him
Yea, i know, just talk like friend
Sorry for disappointed you


Ok, back to the topic !
I were not feeling so well and looked pale
Kept sweating and feeling want to vomit
Eh, i am not pregnant.


After school, i met Elephant - Thomas Lee
Hey, i owe you Starbucks !
And you owe me cheese cakes too !
LOL !


******************************


I continue my blog after having my dinner
Watched Animal Planet while having dinner
My sis and my dad couldn't different between penguin and dolphin !
HAHA ! * laughing dead *
And And And ! My dad talk about shit while my sis and i were having our soup


Woohoooo ! My grandmum just brought us some durians * yum yum *
So, my mouth sure busuk busuk
xD


I wish the TIME will stop

I am looking for you all the time

Holidaysssssss !

Having school holiday now !
But i didn't use my holiday wisely
On the other hands, i am wasting my holiday time
=X


My plans during this holiday
1. On9 and on9 and on9
2. Tv and tv and tv
3. Sleep, eat, sleep, eat
4 . Tuition
5 . Hang out, if someone ajak


See ! i am wasting my holiday time !
I swear, i won't waste my time for the next holiday
NEVER !


My plans for my next holiday
1. Shopping !
2. Studieeeeeee
3. Outdoor activities !


Hope so.
xD


Holiday going to end
But after two weeks more, holiday starts again .
Then, here comes with the final year exam
I said, " I will do better than mid year exam ! "
Hope so too .
=S


Went to Popular with my sister today
Saw a book and i wanna buy it !

How To Sleep With A Movie Star

It is my next aim
And i am reading this book

Dead Until Dark

It is about vampire and a girl who can read people's mind
Sounds a bit like Twilight


I am having some problems recently
I found myself being addicted to books !
I didn't mean text book, but novels
I found myself being quiet than before
Not as talkative as before
I found myself being mature and flirty ?
Yea, i am .


Fine, having emo mood now

谁说一个人不能同时爱上两个人

你还是很爱吃薄何巧克力雪糕
你还是很爱喝黑咖啡
你还是很感性


不同的是
你的心变了?
还是我理性了?
我不确定

你说的她应该不会是我
你说的我们应该不是我和你


你说你完全征服了我
但却还不属于你
我说我完全征服了你
但却还不属于我

苦等不会有结果
何苦在乎得不到的温柔

如果可以回到从前
如果可以重新再来
我会更珍惜你


时间可以倒流吗 ?
我想有一台时光机


我只能偷偷地想念你

I cry for you

Be proud ?

♥

我想要看清你的脸


高挑的身形
不黑也不白的肤色
修长的手指


带着一副黑色的粗框眼镜
但也藏不住你那足以电死我的眼睛
想到样子有时呆到不行的你
嘴角不知觉地上扬


你喜欢把你的鼻子皱成一团
把嘴巴微微地开着
你的招牌动作


装酷却不酷
还是笑起来好看


笑话超冷
常说羡慕我可以翘课
叫我陪你一起去上音乐课
但你最后还是自己去了


喜欢看你在篮球场跳跃


Someone asked me
" How long you think you will after him ? "
I said
" As long as i can breathe ? "


我不想爱到无药可救

I'm still breathing

Give Up ?

Feel wanna write something since i am so damn free now
Haha !


We are having monthly test this few days, but i just simply read through it
I really don't have the effort to study for whole day or whole night
I rather sleep earlier
xD


Yesterday, my friend - GBoy, he told me that he coupled adi !
With a girl - MLui from our school
Damn shocked after i heard that and i was going to crazy
But what can i say ?
Didn't say much and just wished them all the best


Yesterday, i went out with my dad and met his friends who just came back from France
Uncle Frankie is damn Leng Zai and friendly too
Hard to communicate with him since i couldn't speak proper English ?
Ok, i admit that !
=X


Uncle Frankie invited us to stay with them at France and work together
I was like O_O and i looked at my dad
Are you going to move to there ?!
Luckily my dad rejected
Suppose to say my dad wanna consider about it
And this is not the 1st time Uncle Frankie asked about it


" But my youngest daughter going . "
" Me ?! ( point at myself . ) "
" YEA ! don't forget about the test . "
" Fine, i rmb that . "


Cheers !





Beer mari .
3 people finished ...
5 bottles or 6 bottles ?
I can't rmb it, Blur-ing that time
Reached home around 12am
The night was still young, but my dad asked me to sleep early


Lying in the bad, thinking about something


Should i ignore all the LOVE and concentrate on my study ?
Should i give up on him since i can't get the answer ?
Should i stop fooling around and fooling myself ?
Or should i sleep and stop thinking all this ?
Well, i chose the last wan, SLEEP !


Closed my eyes, tears dropped .





Always love to go to school
Not because of study, just because i can play and joke with my friends
Derek, Bryan, Ming Cheng, Ah Chua and i were discussing about the Ghost !
Hotel 626, The Shooter, Ghost Train, Bloody Mary ...
Any kind of On9-games, movies and stories
Khun Khai, Daniel, Siliang them also discussed the same thing as us


Damn scary but made me laughed like hell too !
Especially their expression !
Bryan made his eyes bigger and BIGGER
O_O


Went home after school
Did some revision for Chemistry but i really couldn't und
On9 !


Didn't chat with him today .
Day 1 .
I am going to cry !
T _____________ T


I don't know did he read my bloggie
But i have to say it !


I am damn fucking LOVE you !





Ignore me pls ?


Girls, please be considerate a bit
Your BF just didn't say Bye to you, then you get angry
Said " Your mother important than me izit ?! "
Damn, his mother sure important than you lar
She born him out, ok ?
So ..
* SIGH *
Ignore me once again please ?


Having tuition later
Jonathan not coming
I think i will be quite boring later .


I don't have much time
I don't even know what i want .
Apa lu mau ?!


Pergi Emo.
Ghaaaaaaaaaa !
:D


我想你不是我的
爱你却又该割舍
分开或许是选择
但它也可能是我们的缘分


我不想装着无辜可怜兮兮


潇洒

尝试着笑

=)

Her Story

We didn't know each other before that

We were friend since that day you talked to me

You like music

You like to sing

You like Converse

You like to eat chocolate mint ice cream

But you will sick after you eat it

You like to drink coffee

Although i said it is bad to you

You always make me sweet as honey

" I saw an apple in you eyes "

You said to me one day

We became closer since that day

You made something for me on my birthday

It was special and i still keep it

I swore that i will give you something special on your birthday too

I won the cheer leading on the Sport's Day

You were the 1st person that i informed

I hope i could spend every moment with you

Since that small argument, you ignored me

You didn't talk to me

You didn't chat with me

You didn't reply me even i sms you

I told myself

Maybe he wants to concentrate on his study, so didn't on9

Maybe his hp out of credit, so didn't reply me

Maybe his hp gone again, so couldn't see my msg

Maybe maybe and maybe

I hate myself when you ignore me

Sms you and wished you at 12 sharp

But you didn't reply me

Saw your blog and you thanked a lot of ppl, but i wasn't one of them

A girl gave you a birthday cake on your birthday

You wrote that you will love her forever

I realized that i wasn't important as i thought

我想我一直都是想太多

觉得自己很不要脸

摆明是不喜欢了, 我还死缠烂打

口口声声说不会哭

但还会在夜里偷偷地哭

心虚

结论是

我不要脸 !

The wall between us

I forget who am i